Enlightening Nonsense

 

© Swami X, April 2, 2009

 

I have been walking this path for eternity

And yet now it seems my feet had never left the spot

until you came and took my hand

I look back to see footprints disappeared

And a world that has faded to grey

 

My eyes scan the path i have taken to get here

Unable to see its connection to where I Am now

Its colors have run dry

Leaving in their place

A black and white landscape

a shadow of a life

that is a long distance

from the light inside of me

All that i knew—

Or thought i did

Now seems like a distant dream

That is hard to care about

Once awoken

 

Decisions

Arguments

Jobs

Girls

Laughing

Crying

All old reruns played on a black and white television

and as much as I try

I can’t seem to remain interested

in the cancelled shows of yesteryear

 

Chess, bodybuilding, sports and friends forever

But forever has died and in its place there are tombstones

And to spend more than a few minutes

At the cemetery

your eyes might adjust to the grey

but your heart never will

 

I should feel nostalgic

for all the girls who shared my bed

shared my love

for the young man who never fully committed to them…

or life

But all their faces have faded to grey

As if scried in a crystal ball

far away and looking like death

unable to touch the new-found life of my Be-ing

 

The rainbow lies ahead

But even that seems like a place where i can’t go

For now even Who I Am

Or who i thought I was

Has faded to grey

Leaving me wearing the same face

Only now my Be-ing no longer takes that very seriously

 

Tell me, my love, that the rainbow is real

That when I arrive

It won’t fade to grey

i am starting to wonder if anything matters

For how can I enjoy anything

If tomorrow it, too, will fade to grey

 

Or has now my black and white eyes

Been traded in for ones of color

And all I see in front of me

Has no choice but to be magnificent

hues of luminescence

a bifocal vision

where it is only when i look back

that everything

Fades to grey

 

As I walk the path

Ever forward

Now once again it feels like I Am remaining still

For I no longer care if the rainbow ahead is real

Or a mirage

If it will remain permanent in color

Or fade to grey

 

And when the past and the future

Memories and hopes

All you held onto and all you cared to achieve

Fades to grey

All that matters is this very moment

Here and now

And it is overwhelmingly colorful

            Full

            Overflowing

and it is enough

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