Enlightening Nonsense

© December 9, 2009

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I feel my body tremor as I approach his room

And when I fill the doorway with my form

I see him lying there

Splayed out on his bed

Sweatpants

Shirtless

Reading Steppenwolf

.

He looks up from his book

Eyes turn to me

But his body remains motionless

And his glance sends a shiver through me

And without even a touch

My breath jumps into my chest and throat

And I start panting

As if I just jumped into an ice cold lake

Only my body is feeling anything but cold

.

His leg bends slowly

As he rolls onto his side

And places his feet on the ground

Wind blowing

Draped curtains flowing

His body glowing

.

My lips part

A feeble attempt to regulate

The rising and falling of my chest

With a release valve

.

I am frozen in my spot

And my eyes take momentary breaks

of respite to the floor

For if I continue to look into his eyes

My soul… my heart… may be sucked away forever

Leaving my body to collapse in a heap on the ground

.

After what seems like an eternity

Or maybe only seconds

Of sitting on the edge of his bed

He slowly pushes himself to his feet

His eyes never losing their lock on me

Like a panther stalking his prey

.

His half-naked body glides towards me

And I am in such a haze of ecstasy

That I can’t tell whether his legs carried him

Or if he just suddenly appeared

Inches in front of me

.

My breathing rate increases

And I think either I am going to have a heart attack

Or an orgasm

.

His glance drops from my eyes to the center of my chest

As his arms extend and his hands place themselves

Lightly on my hips

Touching the skin

Between my jeans

And my loose draping shirt

That seems to blow like the curtains

.

He touches his forehead to mine

And now our noses are lightly pressed as well

And my eyes fight to stay open

But they close on their own

Knowing that taking in his form now

Would be like staring at the sun

And they would ever after be blinded to the beauty of

yellow flowers

and snow covered mountains

and children laughing

.

And suddenly on their own volition

My arms throw themselves around his neck and shoulders

And my face pushes itself into his right cheek—

Just for a moment

Before I pull myself close

And bury myself into his neck

.

My hands can’t seem to find comfort in stillness

As they hold and slide and move and bide

The time

Before his hands finally rap themselves around me

And when he squeezes me tightly into him

I feel our chests connect

And my heart jump into his

.

And now hands work surgically

Without thought

Just purpose

As he unties my brown flowing shirt

And it drops to the ground

And like two Tango dancers in perfect harmony

He bends slightly

Letting one hand slide below my knees

While the other remains firmly around my back

And he lifts me off my feet

Physically, that is

As I have already been flying

.

He places me gently on his bed

The touchdown smoother and softer

Than any commercial landing

And his body

Which never separated from mine

Slides on top of me

.

His mouth kisses from my neck

As his hand opens my chemise

And he pulls down one side of my lingerie

Revealing my breast

Over which his soft lips pass

But only briefly

He continues down the center of my chest

Crossing the material of the thin barrier of my clothes

To arrive at my bare belly

.

His lips

His tongue

The slight tickle of his thin moustache

My left forearm covers my face

As I am ready to explode

From the inside out

I don’t know whether

Fluids or body parts

Will scatter the room

But at this point

I no longer care

.

His mouth moves to the outside of my waist

And follows the thin trail

Above the curve of my hip

Up and around

To below my bellybutton

His tongue makes one final pass

Around my navel

And then he leans up

Hands grabbing firmly my skirt and panties

And as he pulls

My hips arch

And soon they pass my legs

And he drops them aside

Leaving me as bare below

As I am inside

.

His lips touch softly the inside of my left knee

And they slide to my inner thigh

His left arm embracing my leg

It’s fingers lightly caressing the outside of my thigh

.

His hand slides up to my hip

As his mouth slides to my pussy

My ribcage arches skyward

As the top of my head pushes into the pillow

And my vocal chords begin to play their music

In moans and groans

.

My eyes pop open wide

A blank ceiling offering nothing to grasp onto

And they close just as suddenly

My splayed elbows rise off the bed

Touch each other in front of my face

And then drop after their feeble effort

To accomplish I don’t know what

.
My left hand covers my face

Pointer finger finding residence on my forehead

Middle finger on my brow

Ring finger on the bridge of my nose

Pinky finger surrounded by parted lips

Resting against the teeth

Of my slightly open mouth

.

Eyes going from the light of the room

To the darkness of my eyelids

Body arching and twisting

Right hand covering his left

Which lies on my stomach

.

The sounds from my mouth

Coming to a crescendo

Until there is a spasmodic full-body quake

And in that complete volcanic explosion

All sounds disappear

And for a moment

I am transported into a silent realm

Just after the Big Bang

Where there is no war

There is no worry

There is no love

It just is

And I know this is Heaven

.

And while his mouth between my legs

Transports me to a place beyond the stars

Just dancing with him naked

Or riding my bicycle with him on the back

His arms holding my waist

Or walking anywhere—

To a bar, the playground, on a sidewalk with no destination

Just looking at him

Through eyes washed clear of fear and frustrations

Heart spilling out in all directions…

I would trade Heaven and harps

Just to have him

Lie with me

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